Dear wonderful daughter,
It is perfectly okay not to be okay. You will not always have it together and I certainly do not expect you to! Calm down, all of it will make sense when the time is right. What you are going through is normal and I trust that you are well equipped to handle the challenges that lie ahead. Being interested in sex is completely normal. It does not make you a slut nor does it make you a sinner. Your body is changing and that is okay too. Wear that mini skirt, but only because YOU want to, and not because you want that boy to take a second glance.
THEY MIGHT NOT WANT YOU RIGHT NOW, BUT TRUST ME THAT IS A BLESSING. THIS WILL ONLY GIVE YOU MORE TIME TO LEARN FROM OTHER PEOPLE’S MISTAKES.
NEVER settle for less than what you deserve. Trust me, you know what you deserve. Don’t be afraid to share with him what that is. Remember that it is not always about you. You need to treat others with the same respect you demand. You might not enjoy having sex with him and that is okay! TELL HIM NO. Have Sex when you want to, you don’t have to do it for him. Trust me he can deal with rejection, and beside you don’t owe him any explanation. He also has the right to say no.
This heartbreak will not last forever. I know it might feel like the end of the world but know that you will triumphant. Accept that he is not for you, and you are not for him and that is okay. This does not necessarily mean he is bad person it just means your time has not come yet. Dust yourself up and rejoice in being single. Truly single and working on your self. Make time for your own growth and your own happiness. Be content in who you are emotionally and physically. Spiritual freedom however will truly set you free. There is nothing like being at peace with who you are.